Monday, April 12, 2010


I always thought of myself as a pear but I saw myself in the mirror the other day, from the side, and I saw an apple. That's part of what got me started this time around.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Feeling Full

If I may say, I am a master at WW. I am terrified about being hungry. I don't know why, it's irrational.

Sometimes I over plan. I eat super low point foods, but oddly I almost never eat zero point foods...not on their own anyway. I don't chow down on carrot sticks but I'll put lettuce on sandwich or salsa on a burrito. I overplanned. It's 9pm and I am completely stuffed. However, I've only 18 of my 30 points. What do I do know?

I think I might have some bread and butter later...if I can stop feeling so full.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Tiny Tummy and Seven Days Strong!

So it only took 2 or 3 days for my stomach to the inside. I noticed myself getting full much faster. That definitely helps with the dieting - it's harder to over eat. Overeating is still possible and then things can stretch out again, but if I stay on top of it, think of all the money I've save on bariatric surgery!

Anyway, I have done seven full days of staying on top of my points and of working out each day. I do at least 255 calories on the Wii Fit and I walk about an hour a week.

I have lost three lbs.

Friday, April 9, 2010


I think I have written about this before but I am too lazy to check.

I don't want to have a baby right now but I am pretty sure I want one eventually. I am positive I do not want to get pregnant when I am this overweight. The health risks scare me but most of all, you have an increased risk of "tearing." Plenty of skinny people tear, but I would like to get as many odds in my favor as possible.

I figure it will take me some time to get to a satisfactory weight before getting pregnant. That's fine and that's why I want to do it now. I don't want to catch baby fever and then be forced to diet and wait months or years while I get my act together. I want to have my act together so when the time comes, I won't have to wait.

I never had to think about it because I was fairly sure I wanted to be done with school first. I will be done with school in a couple months, so I will have to start thinking about what will determine when we actually go for it and decide to become parents.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Stuff Your Face!

In the days leading up to my decision to really commit this time, I was paying more attention to my behavior.

I love the feeling of my mouth being overstuffed. I love cramming as much food will fit in it...when it's certain foods - like popcorn. I love cramming it in.

Is that weird?

I just thought I would share.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010


I just want to add that there was a table at school giving out free cupcakes. I took a free pen/highlighter instead and went on my way.

I NEVER walk away from free food. So, do you believe me now?

The girl who cried diet!

I don't know how many times I can say "this time I am really going to do it" before people stop believing me. I can't just pop up every two months and say "I am really going to lose 100 lbs this time!" and then fall off the Earth.

So, I wanted to be sure. After several "today is the day" or "tomorrow is the day" declarations to myself over the last month, I wanted to make sure it was real.

Last Saturday was the day. I started counting points again and I have been counting four 4 days straight. On top of that, I started working out again. I set my Wii Fit Training goal to 230 calories per day. I have done it Sat, Sun, and Mon and I fully plan on doing it tonight. I am ready to up it to 255 (it has bizarre increments based on foods. Right now I am at 3.5 pieces of wheat toast and the next level is a cup of sticky rice). 255 calorites a day = .5lbs lost per week. If I can lose 2lbs a week from diet on top of that then I can lost 10lbs per month.

For me, three days is a trend. If I can do three days, then it's starting to be something real.

I have three weddings in the family this year - one of which is tropical destination. While I want to look good, strike that, halfway decent, in a bathing suit - I also want to look good in these family photos which wil be around a long time. I cringe when I think of my dad's wedding pictures.

So here I am with the goal of losing 25lbs. I will be back to my wedding weight. I'd like to lose at least 75 (Wii says I should lose 100) but I am going to take it step by step.

Thank you so much to anyone who is still reading this!