Friday, August 28, 2009


I haven't been dumped, but it's the same feeling.

I had a summer job which had the possibility of becoming and school year job and then becoming an offer for a full-time job. They like me a lot and indicated that I would be around in the fall.

Today the boss said they don't know. There are a lot of experienced folks applying for jobs with them and I am not even done with school and they like me but they don't know.

Before we even got to that part I was thinking, "Are you dumping me?" It's more of a break so workplace can "find itself" if you will, but it feels like being dumped. I am in love and the other party is, "I really like you but I don't know."

So it's tough.

I know this isn't weight related, but it's weighing down on my pretty heavily. I thought I would be working there during the semester and they've reconsidered.

Monday, August 24, 2009

I'm back!!

I tried giving a head's up that I would be busy for awhile. I went away, had company, went away for over week, but now I am back and getting settled. I thought that time would just be a break from blogging, but it was also a break from the wagon. I fell off and I fell hard. I haven't weighed myself yet. I'm a little worried. I think I may have gained back all the weight I lost this round.

I need to weight myself. I don't want to because I am scared of what I will see, but by not looking, I can pretend everything is ok and neither get back on track nor feel like I have done anything wrong. That will only make things worse.

I will weight myself tonight. I will get back on track. This will be ok.

I can't help but wonder if this really happened on its own, or of this was subconscious guilt about succeeding. I really think it was the former. I mean, I was out of town for a week for work with no kitchen and pretty much had to eat out every meal. Yes I could have eaten healthier. Yes I could have not gone to the greasy all-you-can-eat Chinese restaurant and make 6 or 7 trips to the buffet.

Ok, this is starting to look more like my fault and less like a matter of circumstances. Did I mention my birthday fell during this break, too? Any sympathy?

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Light month

This month isn't going to get much posting I fear. I am really busy.

I went to Las Vegas, ate at buffets almost every meal, was up 4.5 but was good this week and lost 4. Now we have company in town and I am being bad again but hopefully being good next week will counteract that.

I am nearly drowning in produce from my farmshares, so hopefully that will help me stay on track.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Long time, no blog

Sorry folks. I was out of town over the weekend at a wedding and didn't have the internets.

Soooo, I was in Vegas, the land of all-you-can-eat buffets. I think I did some damage. I weighed myself last night but it was late at night, so I am not counting that. I think I will wait until Saturday morning, my usual weigh-in day. I missed it last week, but oh well.

We have guests staying with us later this week and then I will be out of town a week after that - so I am worried that August will not be a good month.