Saturday, September 12, 2009

What the what?

I feel like throwing in the towel. I don't know why. My enthusiasm has waned and I don't know what to do.

I am disgusted with how I look but I am not doing anything about it. I didn't start dieting again on Tuesday like I said I would. I don't know why. Am I just too lazy? I don't feel like measuring but I also don't feel like staying fat. Then again, is not being fat even possible?

I don't know.

1 comment:

alanna said...

you absolutely have to stop beating yourself up! i just found your blog through 3fc, and honey, the meaner you are to yourself, the lower your self confidence will get, and you'll eat to distract yourself! go for a nice power walk outside - enjoy the last dredges of summer and when you get back you'll feel way better . every time that you eat to the point where you feel full (beyond satisfied), just go for a walk outside! you can keep your flip flops on (ok, uggs...i live in san diego so it's always flip flops) so you don't even feel like you're working out. another thing i do is literally visualize a food on my body - liek look at a donut, and then look down at my stomach and pretend it's pasted on there...not nearly as appealing, you know? anyways, don't give up! we're all in this together and you can totally defeat 'hungry' (as the weight watchers commercials call him) - that little orange fuzzy guy that seems so cute and harmless but is always popping out of drawers trying to sabotage you!! good luck dear, i'll be reading yoru blog to see how your'e doing! thanks for your honesty - it makes blogs worth reading!