How about Friday?

So the macaroni and cheese was the end of me. I brought so much home and thought about all the next day. I then decided that the middle of exams was not the time to start dieting. If there is one thing I love more than food, its free food. I wanted to be free to eat endless amounts of free bagels at school.

Well, I have been eating bagels every day but I haven't been sticking two or three bagels with cream cheese in bag to eat throughout the morning, so that's a mini victory.

So Friday I will start WW again. I know that's also a recipe for disaster given the holidays and all the semester ending parties, but I guess I will cross those bridges when I come to them.

Woops

Yesterday was Day 5 of being back on WW. I had my points all planned out so I could have two pieces of pizza at a meeting I was going to. We always have pizza.

Well instead there was macaroni and cheese, lasagna, baked ziti, etc. I didn't know the points of any of it because 1) I didn't make it and 2) I don't eat these things when I am on program. I almost never eat out, so I am not in the habit of estimating points. I measure everything.

So, what did I do? I just ate as much as I wanted; too much actually. Then I took some home (they brought out to go boxes and said it would all get thrown out). I brought home an entire container filled with

Then when I got home, of course I ate some more macaroni and cheese.

I am just going to pretend I didn't eat more than 50 points (which maybe I didn't) - that would be the point I had left for the day and all my flex points for the week. I am back on track today.

Distractions

I often eat when I am bored. Now I am successfully distracting myself with facebook video games. Well, one in particular: Restaurant City. I set up a separate account just to play it.

Anyway, it's keeping me from overeating but it's also keeping me from studying.

Free Food Temptations...

Yesterday I could feel my Wii workout in my thighs. I can still feel it in my butt today.

I am in the library all day studying today. I was worried about the free bagels they have during exams, but there were none today; I guess it's still study week.

I don't know if I have ever talked about my issues with free food. I have to eat it. I will eat three pizza dinners in a row if they're there and they're free. At school there is always free pizza and I am in a lot of clubs. I think this has a lot to do with my 15lb weight gain since the semester started. I would eat pizza every night for days on end. Plus, I wasn't moving around as much. I was just sitting in class and riding elevators.

I went to a club event that had a ton of extra food - I ate so much that I could barely drive home. I was fuller than on Thanksgiving. I was still uncomfortably full an hour later. I think part of it is that I was raised to never waste food or money; free food accomplishes both. The extra food was going to end up in the garbage. Now it will live forever in my thighs, butt, and belly. Well, hopefully not forever.

I am really excited that I can still feel my work out. It reminds me to work out again today.

Weight Watchers Wagon

So I am doing my off the books WW thing again.

I can't believe I get 30 points. I've never been allowed that many. It kind of upsets me.

I am at 25 so far. I might have some veggie dogs.

Day 1 and feeling fine.

I did Wii for an hour.

Did I mention I am trying to lose 52 lbs in the next year?

Oh my...

I just saw my (221.8) over on the side of my blog. I can't believe I have gained almost 15 lbs in two months.

234 and feeling horrible.

I can't hide from it. Not only did I gain back all the weight I lost this summer, I gained back more than half the weight I lost two summers ago which I kept off for a year. I am not happy with myself.

I kept avoiding it and days became weeks became months. My wii fit told me it hadn't seen me in 56 says. I couldn't believe it and swore I would workout more. Earlier this week it told me I had been gone almost 30 days. Where does the time go?

I am the heaviest I have been this entire calendar year, but about 7 or 8lbs. What is wrong with me? Why would I let this happen?

So here I am, starting over. I am going to lose 1lb per week for the next year. No more joking around. If I mess up a week, I have to make it up the next week. I am going to give myself some flexibility but I can't be as easy as I have been.

Today I am being mindful of what I eat and tomorrow I am going back to really counting my points.

Sorry I've been gone so long. Rest assured that when I am not here, I am off somewhere gaining weight...