Monday, August 24, 2009

I'm back!!

I tried giving a head's up that I would be busy for awhile. I went away, had company, went away for over week, but now I am back and getting settled. I thought that time would just be a break from blogging, but it was also a break from the wagon. I fell off and I fell hard. I haven't weighed myself yet. I'm a little worried. I think I may have gained back all the weight I lost this round.

I need to weight myself. I don't want to because I am scared of what I will see, but by not looking, I can pretend everything is ok and neither get back on track nor feel like I have done anything wrong. That will only make things worse.

I will weight myself tonight. I will get back on track. This will be ok.

I can't help but wonder if this really happened on its own, or of this was subconscious guilt about succeeding. I really think it was the former. I mean, I was out of town for a week for work with no kitchen and pretty much had to eat out every meal. Yes I could have eaten healthier. Yes I could have not gone to the greasy all-you-can-eat Chinese restaurant and make 6 or 7 trips to the buffet.

Ok, this is starting to look more like my fault and less like a matter of circumstances. Did I mention my birthday fell during this break, too? Any sympathy?

1 comment:

Amy said...

Happy Birthday!
Today is my birthday, and I am now 40 and freaking out just a little.
O.k., maybe more than a little.
I do sympathize with your current plight, but more importantly you CAN DO THIS! I have fallen off that darn wagon so many times I have lost count! I have also learned something valuable from each and every fall. It is all of these lessons that I have now gathered around me for this. My current (and I have vowed final) attempt to finally get my act together and get myself in shape.
Face that scale, it's going to be rough. But then move forward. It will get better. I promise!^-^